Another lonely girl...

Here it is, another Friday night alone in my bed. This time is different tho. This time I know I have no one. Every other time I knew I had him, he just wasn't physically here. Now I know he is out with her. He is in HER bed, instead of mine. It makes me sick to my stomach to know this. I know i deserve better, I know I can do better, I know he is a tool and a douche bag and all that other jazz, but seriously I am hurt! Really hurt! I love him! not the him he turned out to be, but the him I thought he was. Well so I guess that's not really loving HIM but you get what I mean. The only good thing about all of this is that he hurt me so bad that I did something I never actually planned on doing that i have always wanted to do, and I bought a plane ticket to Hawaii to go see my friend Autumn. If you don't get how he made that happen, I literally was so upset I just went crazy and did it. I don't know how else to explain it. He just made me want to do something HUGE and that's what I ended up doing. So now on May 4th I will be on a plane headed for Honolulu International Airport :) It will be nice to get out of here and just forget all the stress and drama attached to me. I can get away from everyday life, my lonely boring life. I really can't wait to lay on the beach all day long with not a care in the world other than how my tan is looking. 18 days 6 hours till my plane leaves LAX!